The mind being affected by the heart and gut
From the age of 18, I suffered from self induced depressions. Why do I say self induced? Because depression is self inflicted and it is within my beliefs that we all have the capacity to over come this. I know this because I overcame my depression. I was suicidal, self loathing, self hating, self isolating and did it all because I wasn’t happy, but I wasn’t happy because I didn’t know how to honour myself, I didn’t know how to communicate what I wanted and needed. And my depression was a programming that was trying to seek out support, love and attention.
It’s was built in rejection, rejection of the self, rejection of my father and mother, rejection from women, some trauma as kid and a whole heap of victimhood.
Who would think, isolating yourself, alienating yourself and creating suicidal tendancies would get me what I wanted? But it did get me what I wanted, as I realised over the journey, that these emotions, feelings and beliefs we’re actually truly bringing me back to where I am meant to be. Right here, writing this little insight to my experiences. where does rejection, heartbreak, sadness and emptiness lie? In the heart! Where does not knowing one’s identity come from? Where does ones’ courage to be vulnerable come from? The gut
Does everyone have to take the long and arduous road I took? Do we have to lose even more human life to suicide? Cut short by the rejection of the self. The lack of vulnerability, the lack of leaders out there supporting our men and women to deeper health. But also knowing they are deeply supported and respected and loved! And this is why I’m so grateful for the experiences I had, there are so many people like yourself, reading this that go in and out of self belief, security, safety and positive and negative emotions. Now it’s all part of life, but how can we make sure we create an environment that helps us realise we are on the way and nothing’s in the way, we have the capacity to face our emotions with strength and courage, we have the courage to create security and safety when we think we can’t. This is all possible and I know, because I live this.
I believe in you, support and challenge you to what it is you desire in life.
In courage, vulnerability and strength
